When I first got married I felt the freedom to do what I wanted to do. Of course, I wanted to be the best wife ever. I would do this the way I felt was good for me. I had a certain way of looking at things. For instance, now that I am the woman in charge of the kitchen, I will buy and cook whatever I want, whenever I want. After all, it is my kitchen, my money and I will be the one to cook the meal, eat it and clean up the dishes.
It did not take me long to figure out that this was not how it was going to be or how it should be. It was no longer all about what I wanted or felt I needed it was about someone else, my husband. I was not taking into consideration that he brought home money, even more than I did, he would have to eat what I prepared. I was so focused on myself and what I wanted that I could not even see what he needed. Realistically, I was not the wife that my husband needed me to be.
Sometimes, I feel like that is how it is as a Christian I know there are certain situations I should do one thing but then I have often chosen to do what I wanted instead. I have put myself first, thinking this will make me happy because it is all about what I want. Honestly, in the end, I found out that what I thought I wanted is not what I needed or what my family needed. I end up having to go back and try to clean up the mess I made and then start all over again to get the best results. I had not asked God what he wanted me to do, I just jumped and did what I wanted to do. I mean if I ask God I am sure that He would have told me not to put myself first and to think of others.
What I have learned; God's way is the best, not mine. If I will trust Him and be obedient I can save my self hurt, disappointment and love those around me better. I will not have to go back and clean up a mess because when God is in control He takes care of it all. I might have plans but if they don't line up with God's then they will never be the best plans.
"Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.” – Proverbs 19:21.